tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86221640218458086162023-11-15T23:22:51.179-08:00A whole lot of ChaosAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-54998258453701110222011-07-30T03:32:00.000-07:002011-07-30T03:35:54.842-07:00A random thought for todayI am sitting here at work trying to figure out if I should blog or not because I am on the clock...but nothing is being put out right now, and I've done all my work...well, I'm sure I can find something to do but I had the most random thought today.<br /><br />Which Jelly Belly is my favorite?!?!?!<br /><br />I know right.....totally random! I'm sitting at work eating a container of Jelly Bellys and trying to decide which one is my favorite. <br /><br />I love the blueberry ones...I love the tangarine ones....and I love the Dr. Pepper ones. All the others, I'll eat most of them...but touch my favorites and I'm gonna have to bite ur head off!! Ok....maybe that was a little dramatic...but u know what I meant!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-7151002616165624052011-07-16T17:55:00.000-07:002011-07-17T11:21:35.408-07:00A Lifestyle ChangeWow...so much has happened since I last posted anything on this blog. I can't believe how much life has changed. We have an awesome apartment that we completely love. We have entertained a few times since we've moved here. Had a family Easter get-together...and a Farhner Family Fourth of July Baked Potato Bar Extraveganza with 12 people crammed into my little place. I have decided to go back to school and will begin classes on August 15th...hopefully! So much has happened I can't even remember it all!<br /><br />But that's really not why I am posting today.<br /><br />I am posting today because I have decided that it's time for a lifestyle change. I am tired of not having money. I am tired of working my tail end off and not being happy about what I have and what I have accomplished. I am tired of having a wonderful place to live and not being able to enjoy it like I want! I would love to be able to cook in my kitchen more often. I want to be able to put all my cookbooks that I have aquired into use. I want to be able to enjoy the playstation and netflix that I pay for on a monthly basis. So, here's what I have decided to do about things....we are going to not eat out so much!!! I want to try and cut it back to maybe once every two weeks!!!! I'm not sure we can always accomplish this but I'm getting really tired of eating the same kinds of crap day in and day out! So, on my days off, I am going to cook like a mad woman and make all kinds of things for the days that I am working. We are going to get all kinds of containers so that we can freeze things and then pull them out when we are hungry. Thank heavens for microwaves!!!! That's the plan of attack...What do you think??? Can we do it!!??? Stay tuned to find out!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-59467148322629881602011-04-07T17:51:00.001-07:002011-04-07T17:58:58.497-07:00When Life gets you DownSo to say that life isn't always fair seems to be an accurate statement. When life gives you lemons, you need to make lemonade...another accurate statement. One that I am going to take to heart and really live by. In fact, I just may make a sign and hang it in my kitchen...that seems like a good place for food signs! Things are a little tough this week. We paid our rent and we paid the car payment....there is nothing left. Enough for a bridge pay on the phone and a half a tank of gas. We have next to no food in our house. In fact, there is a carton of eggs, cream cheese, grapes, oranges, onions, baked potatoes, and condiments in our fridge. That's it!! Oh, and I think a package of cheese. Not a whole lot to work with. I do have some frozen dinners...only 4, and a roast (but nothing to cook it in because my landlord didn't give us enough time to get everything out), and some ground beef. I like to cook and I like to have things that make cooking easier. When you take those things away, I can't do my job as a wife and a homemaker. I want to be able to provide dinner for my family (even if it's just Tony and I). I can't even open up a can of tuna because my can opener was at my old apartment....how is that going to work??? I don't have my sharp knives to cut up apples and make a fruit salad. Sometimes, life just stinks...That's why I am going to make my sign...in fact, I'm going to make it right now!!! I can do this! I can make lemonade out of lemons...even though I don't have any!! LOL! Away I go to make a motivational sign!! Just another way Tiffany gets to be creative!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-68456180042234093042011-04-04T14:31:00.000-07:002011-04-04T15:04:45.818-07:00An interesting perspectiveLife has a way of changing on you whether you want it to or not. Tony and I still have our jobs, although he has been promoted recently to a lead position, at Barnes that we are pleased with. Mine is a little boring at times because I really don't have much to do but sit there and answer phones in the middle of the night. Sometimes it's a semi busy night, but most nights there can be a 10-15 minute lull in between phone calls so that's a lot of down time. Well, when I have downtime, I tend to get bored really fast. When I get bored, I spend money...money that we don't always have. So I have decided that I am going to go on a spending moratorium. Not for the basics of living but I'm not going to spend money on craft items...because let's face it...I have a TON of scrapbooking stuff that is just sitting in like 10 totes upstairs that need to be gone through and organized. I want to use it up. I want to be able to say that I am not wasting money anymore. Now, there are some basics that need to be kept up like adhesives and things like that. Those I know I don't have a ton of that will be used up and be replaced on a regular basis. I have had so much fun using some of the stuff that I already have. I made some really cute stuff already...and had a ton of fun doing it! I forgot how much I really like being creative. I feel so much happier when I have been able to have a creative outlet. Let's see if I can figure out how to download some of the stuff I worked on.... <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZSB4dzc4K1ZfWDRtnBdMYoPZDUGhEES1o3SmnAYh-u7DAQs-N9dmZV9Hr0cIIQEknXILsYZSNk2aVWPMCPWHIrq9UfAiniq4RRq9t92F0dJYDE6Ipjko9ui3n42aJomX8uJQZtuU-wrm7/s1600/IMG_0066%255B1%255D"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 150px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5591849379422744178" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZSB4dzc4K1ZfWDRtnBdMYoPZDUGhEES1o3SmnAYh-u7DAQs-N9dmZV9Hr0cIIQEknXILsYZSNk2aVWPMCPWHIrq9UfAiniq4RRq9t92F0dJYDE6Ipjko9ui3n42aJomX8uJQZtuU-wrm7/s200/IMG_0066%255B1%255D" /></a> This is a bookmark that I made last night. I know my photographs aren't the best but it's all I have to work with! Anyway, this is made with 6mm swarovski crystals and copper headpins and daisy spacers. It's so freakin fun to make these! I love making bookmarks! A simple and fun creative outlet! Another thing that is fun to make are earrings. I have never really worn them but I like to make them. I must really like shiny things! Here are ones that I started last night but am unable to finish until I can get to a bead store to get some more crystals! <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 150px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5591850388314883218" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIg_Qnu4nQkwxqYVb8ojcaGYbjYqA6OBwgub0kt7YEP9e9nTtwBjZUB1QznRigvqbNNy7R9sTO8Im_p7yu2m6yEjhOyMf9HWVE9FRA7Q-JUp6BPe4SlGKFquvPwbp8564p-A47SWayymrG/s200/IMG_0068%255B1%255D" />So I'm still trying to figure out this whole picture placement thing on blogger...but at least you know can see what I'm talking about! These earrings are also made with swarovski crystals and are actually really really pretty. U can't really see the colors but they are lt violet AB, crystal AB, and lt sapphire AB 4mm crystals. I really like being creative. I like bright and bold colors too. What better way to be creative and have the color than making a quilt. I have actually <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihqCeUgSN89XjC9Lu18soHXDFy3855K-c2rKUz7u3ViaHtGXsNj306-j8EHgq3XrV6xfd-a1EjWFFN79k2UFN9g_6l_pPpYjvZ52kQI72tRSRCfGlvnmJFhKKSjB3yZBLtvObX3oKGazOM/s1600/IMG_0069%255B1%255D"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 150px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5591851807740123394" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihqCeUgSN89XjC9Lu18soHXDFy3855K-c2rKUz7u3ViaHtGXsNj306-j8EHgq3XrV6xfd-a1EjWFFN79k2UFN9g_6l_pPpYjvZ52kQI72tRSRCfGlvnmJFhKKSjB3yZBLtvObX3oKGazOM/s200/IMG_0069%255B1%255D" /></a>never made a quilt before so this is a new experience for me. There really isn't much money in this quilt so far. I have been able to get everything on sale so far so it's been a ton of fun to work on. This is the only thing that I can spend money on until it's done. I could actually really use this quilt today....it's freakin cold here!!! This is going to be a fun project. I found a quilt pattern that I really liked and it seemed pretty easy to do. And since I have never done this before, easy is the way to go. Who knows, maybe I will rock at making quilts and really like doing it and will make some for family. You never know with me! So this has been a picture heavy blog but it's been fun! I hope you all enjoyed seeing my new projects!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-56994990339959651202011-03-26T11:59:00.000-07:002011-03-26T12:20:05.656-07:00Survival ModeI want to start this off by first saying that I am in awe of women that have had children or that are getting ready to have babies. I think it's an amazing gift that Heavenly Father has bestowed upon them. I think that it is just awesome that they are able to have kids.<br /><br />Now, with that being said....if you don't want to hear the rantings of a jealous women, then you just need to stop reading now because this is just not worth your time and energy.<br /><br />Ok, so with that being said, I am sick and tired of hearing about all these women having kids. This is when the evil green monster rears his ugly head and my world comes crashing down into dust. There is one thing on this earth that I want more than anything. I hint at it all the time, but it's starting to consume me and I hate that it's starting to control my life. I hate that I am letting it but I don't know what else to do. I am tired of faking being happy for others because they are starting their family, or in some cases, having more kids.<br /><br />Tony and I have been married now for 6 years. I know things have not been easy for us either financially or even in the way of housing and things like that...but I look at other peoples situations, and they are in the same boat as I am, and they are having babies. I know babies take a lot of money, but you know what....I know where my priorities lie. I WANT A KID! I want to have that bundle of joy. I want the added stresses that come with having a child. I want the connection to another human being. I love my husband...there is no question in my mind...but I feel like I have so much more to give. I feel like I haven't had the opportunity to show what I can really do and how much I really have to give. <br /><br />I see all these women in my ward that have such beautiful children. I think about the parents going to school and all the women are working at supporting their families while the husbands are going to school to get their medical degrees. This is a tough time for them. Why is it that they can have families, and I can't?? I know I haven't been the best person that I can be...but I'm working on it. I know that there are some major health issues in my life, but I'm slowly working on getting them better. I know that life isn't fair. I know that probably better than some people. I also know that I don't know what goes on behind closed doors. I'm not naive. I know that everyone has their personal struggles. <br /><br />I guess what I'm trying to say, is that while I am happy for others that are starting their families, when is it my turn? Do I even get a turn? I think about adopting. I'm all for that, BUT, wow, the expense is ridiculous. I know that there is a lot of money involved in raising a child. I know that medical bills to have a child is high...but to adopt a child is crazy expensive. And you have to have it upfront....that's a lot to ask. I guess if you can come up with the adoption fee, than you won't have a problem taking care of a child....but still, when it's someone like me, who is dying to raise a family...it's just another road block to what i really want.<br /><br />So, I know that this blog isn't going to be a popular one. I never thought it would be. I'm not looking for advice....I'm not even looking for sympathy. I'm just spouting because I'm sick and tired of the evil green monster lashing out.<br /><br />So, I'm trying to find ways to survive these feelings. I would love to overcome them in general, but I don't think that's going to happen until I am able to start my own family.<br /><br />There are so many articles out there...even in the new Ensign, there's an article about three couples and what they did to overcome their jealousy ( I guess you can call it). It's hard to be in a church where family is central and all I have is my husband. We are taught at a young age that we are to replenish the earth...all the young women are taught that family is important and that we need to have one....well, what about us that haven't been able to do what has been directed. I want to be that stay at home mom. I don't want a career...I'm sick of working. I want to be able to stay at home with my kids and watch them learn and grow. Is that so bad? How is it that all these unplanned pregnancies happen...or the child is abused and neglected...and they are stuck in homes where they aren't wanted? How come I can't have what I really want more than anything on this earth?<br /><br />Anyway, all the self help books and articles just don't seem to help. I still want what I can't have and I guess I'll continue what I have always done....put on that fake smile, and congratulate the new mom. It's getting really old though. In fact, it down-right sucks.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-80643670807120644012011-03-24T21:45:00.000-07:002011-03-24T22:08:05.580-07:00Did you miss me???It has been a long long time since I have written. I haven't had the internet available to me much so that's why I have been gone. Did ya miss me??? LOL!!<br /><br />So many things have happened since I last blogged. Let's see....where shall I begin!<br /><br />So my landlord cam to us one afternoon and told us that she needed us to move out. That she was giving us 60 days notice to find a new place to live. It was one of the those "holy crap" moments. We had planned on being there for a while. We liked living on the Hill. We loved the neighborhood and being able to walk to the different restaurants and markets. We loved being able to have our animals. This was like a tragedy to us. We knew something big was up. Tony and I had even said something along the lines of us getting kicked out. It's so funny....the Spirit totally prepared us for what was going to happen. After going through the emotions of shock then anger then shock and then even more anger, we decided that maybe this was for the best. That day, I started looking at different websites....trying to find a place to live. I was a Craigslist fanatic at that point. I wanted us out of the bad situation before it got worse. Being totally motivated to find a place to live, I went for it full steam ahead....contacting everyone at Church, trying to figure out who was moving and if they knew of any places that were available....Talking to the missionaries to see if they knew of places that were vacant. Everyone we knew was looking for us. There happens to be a guy in my ward who is a property manager for a rental company. We hooked up with him and he was able to find us something that I am in absolute heaven in. I LOVE my new place. We are now located in Soulard....just 2 blocks from the <a href="http://www.blogger.com/www.soulardmarket.com/">Soulard market</a>. It's on the edge of some not so nice part of town, but you know, I feel totally safe here. Tony has been at work and left me home by myself at night and I have no problems falling asleep. I am able to have Athena out of her kennel for most of the day...she is only in there when we are gone. I totally love having her around. She definitely brightens my day. So do my kitties! They are so much fun to have around....and totally makes me laugh a ton!!!! It's pretty fabulous!!! I'm gonna have to see if I can post some pictures here of my new house!!!<br /><br />That's been the main thing that has happened since I last blogged. I haven't been able to do any crafts or anything yet. We are still fixing things up here. But it's just amazing to me how blessed we really are. We are so lucky to have gotten this place. It's the type of place that I have always wanted...it's home to me....it feels like a home and not just a temporary spot. It's comfortable and I am in absolute heaven. We are so blessed to have found something that while it's a little bit more than what we were paying, we have been able to make all the payments so far...we do need to still come up with the security deposit, but we are working on that! I will pick up all the overtime that I need to stay in my new home. I love it here and nobody is taking it away from me!!! I also think the Lord wanted us to find this place. I think that we are supposed to be here. There were a lot of prayers said that we would find the right place for us so that we can be comfortable and be in one place while Tony is going to school. I'm not worried about what will happen after he's done. I want him to be able to go to school and not have to worry about things that are beyond our control...or things that are within our control either. I'm really happy to be where I am....I can't wait to have people over so that they can see my new place...i didn't feel that way before. I didn't feel like anyone would want to come over to my new place. I didn't feel like having people over because it was such a dismal place. I hated that my neighbor smoked and you could smell it in my house. I hated that he would have loud get togethers at his place. I heard everything. I heard and smelled it all....and I HATED it. I hated the smoke coming in to my place...it was embarassing. It made me feel dirty and I hate that feeling. I have more desire to keep this place clean. I want to take care of my house. I want to make my house a home. I want people to feel comfortable here. I want to feel comfortable here. Something Tony and I really want to make happen is having the missionaries over to eat at least once a month...that's something that we didn't get to really do at the other place because of the embarassing smoke smell in my house. I didn't want them to think it was us that was smoking. That's one of the reasons that I got into Scentsy...was to mask the smell from the neighbors. While I'm really grateful for the opportunity it gave us to get down here to the city, I am really grateful that we stuck it out and was able to find a place that feels comfortable to us and makes us feel at home!!!!!<br /><br />Wow...can we say tangent!!! LOL!! Sorry. This is getting long so I will go but there is so much other stuff that I can't wait to share with you now that I have the internet! I am going to be working on getting my craft stuff organized so maybe I'll share some things that I have been working on. And I promise to post pictures some time soon of my new home so that you can all see them! But now, I'm going to say goodnight and I will talk to you all some other time!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-66223778665953710372011-01-06T00:18:00.001-08:002011-01-06T00:26:37.268-08:00Did you miss me?So it seems like forever since I posted anything on this blog. Reason for that....so freakin busy!!! It's been a crazy last month or two. Not only have I not worked any overtime in 3 weeks, I have just been trying to survive. Things have been tough health-wise. I am soo tired all the time and I know what's causing it, I just haven't figured out how to fix it yet. I'm working on it though!!!<br /><br />Anyway, I hope everyone had an awesome Christmas and New Years. I ended up working both of those holidays so while it wasn't fantastic, it wasn't too bad.<br /><br />So I have been reading and talking to a lot of people about how their Christmas' went and everyone is saying the same thing. We just weren't feeling the season this year. It just seemed so commercialized and I just wasn't in the spirit. I know some of it was because I had to work but we didn't even go Christmas shopping until Christmas Eve. I did totally spoil Tony this year though. And I completely loved doing that. I just wish I could have kept going and money was no object...but it was and I eventually had to quit spending but I still had fun. Seeing his face when he opened up his WalMart bags...it was priceless! LOL!!! And yes, I did say WalMart bags...i don't wrap. I hate wrapping gifts so we both got ours in WalMart bags!!! <br /><br />Before Christmas, we had an opportunity to go back to Oklahoma. It was great seeing people we haven't seen in a lllloooonnnnggg time. We really had a good time...I mean, we did go for a funeral, but it was still nice to see everyone. We also got the apology we were looking for which is nice...now if only my family members would believe us....anyway, that's another post that will probably never happen!<br /><br />So I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year and I promise to try and update more often. By the way, if you read this, you should comment! I would love to hear from you!!!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-15687714423664343652010-11-28T21:06:00.000-08:002010-11-28T21:22:09.241-08:00Just another busy weekSometimes life just seems to spin out of control and there is nothing that I can do about it. I feel like I am in more control of life than I have been but it still feels overwhelming sometimes. Ah well, that's what makes life interesting. I am so excited to actually have a day off tomorrow so that I can get my house cleaned. I feel like I'm living in a barn at the moment! I plan on tackling a menu for the week so we don't have to go out very often. The problem with this plan is that I never want to cook!!! LOL!!! By the time I get a day off, I am so freaking tired that all I want to do is sleep. That's it..just crash and burn. Since I have this stupid cold thing, all I really want to do is sleep...but it's getting better and that's just fine with me.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />So I got a new toy this last week. For the longest time I have wanted an iPod. I just have never had the money to get one. Well, since my awesome boss let's me have as much overtime as I can possibly stand, I was able to get one! So excited! I got an iPod touch with 32 gigs of memory! So freakin awesome!!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5544836882211806354" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 88px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 125px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7MSp-FqeFq_Ojt1HP9Os0cqv-ke7ndGzCVAq6hAawqIF7sxCPClYqj7CS5hgISBFfx-2YRugP-Fua4-VJfJkiQAR_XEH44v-u8_H9WrBpLpGMCdgKOBUQUcjSuwGvz_nhNScmC9DXXnW3/s200/ipod.jpg" border="0" />That's my new toy!!! Isn't it pretty!!!??? LOL! Yes, I know i can be such a dork sometimes!!! I am such a music buff and having this makes work so much more interesting and fun! I love being able to look things up on the internet and listening to my kind of music instead of listening to other people's kind of music! I think I have downloaded over 150 songs to it already. And they are all legit downloads thank you very much! LOL!!!</p><p>So that's my exciting news for the week!</p><p>Oh, I forgot to mention my awesome job at Scentsy. I am having such a blast!!! I am almost to a certified consultant which means I will make more commission off of it. I only need $400 more. So exciting!!! So, if you are in the market for some Scentsy candles, let me know!! I will be happy to place an order for you!</p><p>Talk to you soon!<br /></p>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-90820271284325683722010-11-22T02:46:00.000-08:002010-11-22T02:58:40.491-08:00What a last few weeks!Oh my goodness. It has been a crazy last few weeks. I am working non stop it seems like. I think in the last 4 weeks, I have only had like 3 days off. I am so busy but I'm loving it! I love my job so that makes things sooo much easier. I work with some awesome people and a great boss! I never realized how much that really does matter! <br /><br />Anyway, I have been working crazy amounts of overtime. They either call me in or I volunteer to work. It just depends on how desperate they are! I was trying to have a week where I didn't have any overtime, but then I got a phone call and they were desperate for someone to work...that person was me! It's not that big of a deal. I was supposed to be off work on Thanksgiving too but then I found out that there was a bonus being offered...so naturally I snatched it up! I probably don't need to be working this much but the money is sooo nice. I haven't had to cook much which is nice but I am getting tired of eating out. I can only handle so many hamburgers from McDonalds you know!<br /><br />My health hasn't been the best either. Not only have I been put on like 6 new medications, I am now facing the possibility of kidney failure. I'm in the beginning stages. Talk about a wake up call. I knew something was going on with my kidneys but everyone said that it was because my blood sugars were so high for so long...I knew that wasn't the case but they were doctors...they are supposed to know what's wrong right??? Whatever. Next time I'll just stick with my instincts and follow the Spirit. My doctor really wants me to go on this medication that has got me so freaked out. I am so lucky to have a bunch of residents in my ward so I went to my Elder's Quorum president, who is a 5th year resident, and between him and his brother, they came up with a couple of other medications that do the same things as the med that really has me freaked out. I think I'm going to talk to my doctor about trying those instead.<br /><br />My kidneys aren't the only ones that are having problems. I can't seem to keep anything down and I have diarrhea so bad some days that it's just scary and I don't want to go anywhere. I'm wondering if my body is finally revolting against all the fried crap that we've been eating. I wanna try and take a few days off work and cook a ton of stuff that's healthy and yummy. Even if it's not like really really healthy, it's gotta be better than the fast food crap that we have been eating! So that's my goal for this next little while...trying to eat a little healthier!<br /><br />So my husband is my hero! The man is almost done with his first semester of school. I am soo proud of him. He's averaging A's!!! He may have a few B's but I think that's completely ok!!!! I'm so proud. He finished his first aid class and got an A!!!! Go Sweehe! He is very proud of himself and I think that is totally awesome! <br /><br />Well, hopefully life will start slowing down...although, I'm thinking that's not going to be very likely. I hope to be able to blog more often. I seem to be slacking at it again!!! I promise to be better!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-82331392988190574772010-11-05T18:09:00.000-07:002010-11-05T18:18:22.086-07:00Totally OverwhelmedI am feeling totally overwhelmed this week. I have so much going on...So much overtime at work and just life seems to be spinning out of control. There is soo much that I want to do and get done. I have accomplished a few things this week that I really wanted to get done. I was able to get my bathroom and 3/4ths of my living room painted. I am so excited. The color in my living room is perfect. I love it!! It's like a light slate blue. It's perfect! Now the color in my bathroom is a little more yellow than I wanted. I was going for an orangish yellow and it's not the color I was hoping for....so I think i'm going to have to sponge some orange on top. I think that's what I am going to have to do to make it look like I want. But that's for another week...I'm just trying to make it through this month. After Christmas, when things are more calm, I will be able to get on with life much better.<br /><br />So what has been going on lately...nothing much really. I have been working like crazy. I had about 40hrs of overtime in the last two weeks. I am exhausted...the paycheck before, I had 36 hrs of overtime. I have 20 next week. I am turning into a workaholic. I need the money in order for us to have enough money to pay bills and to get some of the things that we want for ourselves and the house. It's getting frustrating though because I am sooo tired lately. I went to the dr to see what is going on. I keep playing phone tag with the nurse practitioner....wonder what she wants to tell me....we shall hopefully find out this next monday.<br /><br />So that's pretty much all I have gotten done this week. No new recipes or anything like that. I have just been coasting along trying to make things better for us!<br /><br />I'll write more later when I have something interesting to say!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-45203765102045661752010-10-25T06:01:00.000-07:002010-10-25T06:15:52.702-07:00Another Day, Another DollarOMG....so I worked 118 hours in the last two weeks....with 38 hrs of overtime in one week. Yes, I think I have officially lost my mind! I am so blasted tired....I knew I shouldn't have said that I will work an additional 16 hour shift. I have NO idea what I was thinking!!! All I know is that I needed the money and this is the only way that I know how to get it, without doing something illegal!<br /><br />I also started to sell SCENTSY!!!<br /><br />Now, what the heck is Scentsy you might be asking!?! It is a company that sells wickless candles. Yep, you read that right! You can check out my website <a href="http://www.blogger.com/tiffanyfarhne.scentsy.us">here</a>. Please feel free to order whatever you like!! LOL!!! It's actually a really neat company. It has some interesting products. You see, I have a crapload of animals at my house and I have a really big problem with flames. To me, cats and fire don't seem to mix! So with Scentsy, you have the awesome fragrance of the candle and the light of the candle, but you don't have the soot or the flame! What it is is basically a warmer, that uses special light bulbs, that melts the wax. Which in turn makes your house smell yummy!!! I love it!<br /><br />So, if you so desire, please take a look. If you have any questions, you are more than welcome to e-mail me or just leave a comment!<br /><br />Oh, one thing that I forgot to add. If you order before Nov 1, you will be entered into a drawing for a Cranberry Muffin (which is the scent of the month) Scentsy Bar! How's that for some incentive!<br /><br />Hope you all are doing well! I know as soon as my shift is over, I will be at home completely asleep!<br /><br />Have a blessed day!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-7878991191014341762010-10-18T02:01:00.000-07:002010-10-18T02:19:20.702-07:00Just a few random thoughts!So I figure I need to blog since I haven't done so in a while! I really don't have a lot to say tonight but i'm sure I can think of something!!! LOL!!<br /><br />So I'm sitting here at work and I'm loving the music videos on Yahoo tonight. Right now i'm listening to George Michael's "Faith." I love listening to the most random of songs. I just pick an artist and I try and play as many of their songs as I can handle! It doesn't always work cause sometimes I'm just done after one or two songs...but sometimes, I go crazy! I have listened to everything from Def Leppard to George Michaels...in a few minutes I think I will listen to some Josh Groban. I love being able to listen to whatever I feel like at that moment! I like having a variety of music to listen to!<br /><br />It's interesting that certain songs bring back a lot of memories. When I hear a certain song, it helps me remember things from my past. I don't have a lot of memories from my past...some of that has to do with the things that I've gone through in my life...kinda like a memory that I don't want to remember. Sometimes it seems like all i remember is the bad things in my childhood. Songs have a way of bringing things to life for me...does that make any sense? Let's see if I can come up with an example....when I listen to a certain song, it helps me remember what I was doing while I was listening to a song. I love to read with music on in the background so sometimes if I hear a song, it helps me remember the book that I read. There's a song, and I can't remember the name of it at the moment, but when I hear it, it makes me think of when I read "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory." I remember that laying on my bed and listening to the radio and that specific song came on. I remember that it was sunny and gorgeous and my dad telling me that I should be outside instead of reading. You see, I loved (and still do) to read. I would lay on my bed and read for hours and hours. I still love to do that. I read a ton and always loved it. For me, it's a way of escaping reality. Sometimes, reality just sucks and I would rather be taken away from it all.<br /><br />Oh, before I forget...something exciting happened in my life...speaking of reality right?? So I signed up to be a Scentsy rep. I am soo excited about this product. I LOVE it!!! Here's my website if you want to take a look: <a href="http://www.blogger.com/tiffanyfarhne.scentsy.us">tiffanyfarhne.scentsy.us </a>Please feel free to take a look. It's a product that I can truely stand behind. I like it because, while i LOVE candles, the fire worries with me because of the animals. I have cats so I worry about flames and cats...doesn't seem to be a good combination. So this company solves my issue! It's a product that uses light bulbs instead of wicks to melt scented wax. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! Please take a look and if you so desire...please order. I promise you...you won't be disappointed. <br /><br />Okay, so those are my random thoughts...really, I don't have much going on at the moment! Maybe next time, I will have more profound thoughts!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-21663464098725870862010-09-30T21:59:00.000-07:002010-09-30T22:10:11.331-07:0010 things I'm thankful forOkay so today has been a very rough day so I think I need to work on thinking of some things that I am particularly thankful for. Here it goes:<br /><br />1. I am thankful for a husband who can calm me down after something very frustrating happens.<br /><br />2. I am thankful for a good friend who let's me cry on his shoulder...mainly through instant messaging!<br /><br />3. I am thankful for the Church and all that it has done to help me and my family.<br /><br />4. I am thankful for people who listen to my complaining and then tell me to buck up and get on with life because someone else may have things harder than I do.<br /><br />5. I am thankful for the challenges that I face. I know that they make me stronger in the end...it just sucks while it's going on!<br /><br />6. I am thankful for the roof over my head. I love my place and I hope that I get to keep it.<br /><br />7. I am thankful for my education. Now if only I can finish it!<br /><br />8. I am thankful for my paycheck and the tons of hours that I put in on overtime. It was nice but it could have been nicer!<br /><br />9. I am thankful to all my blog readers. It seems like some of you actually like to read it!<br /><br />10. I am thankful for a creative outlet that I have in scrapbooking. I love to be able to take out some of my frustrations out on paper. Scrapbooking makes me happy! Let's hope it always does!<br /><br />I know some of these things are probably repeats...and that may happen a lot because these are the things that I am truely thankful for. I have some things that I need to get over and I'm working on it but it's hard sometimes to look at the whole picture. It's hard to remember that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle...and i even question how much He thinks that I can handle. I think sometimes I'm at my breaking point and more and more stuff just happens. It's hard....life really is hard. And sometimes I just can't keep doing what I'm doing. I'm trying to figure out how to make life a little easier but I have no idea how. I just keep plugging away and trying different things. Oi! It's tough sometimes!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-10224197048854057082010-09-26T00:55:00.001-07:002010-09-26T01:39:02.535-07:00InspirationOk...so I have this friend that is absolutely the most creative person I know. She is amazing and such an inspiration to me. I have come to realize that I haven't ever told her how much she inspires me. It's interesting to me because I knew her growing up. She's younger than I am. She's the sister of a high school friend of mine. Anyway, it doesn't really matter who she is or what her name is...the thing that matters is the total inspiration that she is to me.<br /><br />She has two blogs that I read constantly for different ideas for crafts and recipes. I just love her recipes. They are usually pretty good!! And they aren't expensive either! She has inspired me to start a new blog...it's one that probably won't be updated all the time but it's one that I'm going to start so that I can keep a running log of what we like to eat! We also try new recipes all the time so this will be a record of what we've tried! So...here's the new blog address if you feel so inclined to check it out!<br /><br /><a href="http://farhnerfoodies.blogspot.com/">http://farhnerfoodies.blogspot.com/</a><br /><br />There hasn't been much posted there yet because i just started it. So, make sure if you read this blog, that you check out the other one!!! I promise to only post yummy recipes!<br /><br />Have a great day!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-28239866938477116222010-09-22T18:26:00.000-07:002010-09-22T18:51:59.650-07:00Christmas listsWow...it's that time already?? I can't even believe that there are only 3 months left of this year. It completely shocks me! Where has the time gone? I think back on how this year started and where I am now, and it just amazes me. I love where I'm at now. I love our apartment. I love my new job. I love that Tony is trying to better himself through education. I'm so proud of him. I can't believe how much he really likes going to school. The first week was difficult but things are so much better and wow....we really are happy. I love our new ward. Everyone is absolutely awesome and sweet. Holy Cow...I'm watching the result show for Dancing with the Stars from last night. Chris Daughtry is totally awesome!! For those who don't know me that well, I am a HUGE Def Leppard fan. I am absolutely one of their biggest fans. I just saw Daughtry and Santana's version of "Photograph." It was so amazing! Good job Guys!!! It was great!<br /><br />Okay, so anyway...it's time to come up with our Christmas lists. So here's what I want:<br /><br />Tiffany's List:<br /><br />Cricut cartridges<br />House seasons 1-5<br />Law and Order: SVU - all the seasons<br />Clothes<br />Shoes<br /><br />Tony's List:<br /><br />Guitar books<br />Acoustic Guitar<br />Clothes<br />Shoes<br />PS3 games<br /><br />I have no idea what to give Tony for Christmas this year. Things have been really different for us this year. They are starting to look up for next year too. We are so happy being on our own. We are learning more and more about each other and we are just having so much fun. We love being foster parents to kittens for a local rescue. It's just been a blast! So anyway, that's all I have for now. I'm so tired today. 32 hours of overtime this week....i think i'm allowed to be tired!<br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-49825700282470088062010-09-19T17:41:00.000-07:002010-09-19T18:26:23.406-07:00My new and improved blog!I love the new look for my blog! I think it's so nice and soothing...nothing like what it used to be! I'm really happy with it! So I have decided to do things a little different with my blog. It seems to me that I have been kind of negative in my blogs. While occasionally it's okay to be negative and have a bad day, I seem to have them more often than not...or maybe I just complain more. So I have decided that today I am going to come up with 10 things that I am thankful for. I have also decided that I am going to try and do that once a week. So here's the list for this week!!<br /><br />1. I am thankful for sleep. I may not get enough, but I am totally grateful for what I get!<br /><br />2. I am thankful for vanilla creme wafers! They are my favorite cookie...is that wierd?<br /><br />3. I am thankful for awesome fellow employees who are willing to go and buy me plums while I am sitting behind this desk waiting for the phone to ring.<br /><br />4. I am thankful for my creativity that allows me to express myself through my "art" of scrapbooking.<br /><br />5. I am thankful for my animals even though they drive me crazy sometimes.<br /><br />6. I am thankful for my friends that I have met throughout my life!<br /><br />7. I am thankful for my cricut. How goofy is that?? I love my bug...it makes me happy!<br /><br />8. I am thankful for my husband and the love and support that he shows me!<br /><br />9. I am thankful for the soldiers who fight for my freedoms.<br /><br />10. I am thankful for my Mom for everything that she has done for me.<br /><br />You know, writing this blog today makes me realize that there are a ton of other things that I am thankful for. I can't wait to get them all out there!!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-65218904515535250572010-09-09T21:57:00.000-07:002010-09-09T22:14:36.667-07:00My Biggest FearSo I was watching reruns of "Grey's Anatomy" today and it got me thinking about my life and my biggest fears. I never really knew that I had a really big fear. Most people are afraid of dying but I'm not. I know where I'm going...maybe not which level of the celesitial kingdom...but I know that at least I will be able to see my family again. I'm not scared of that...my biggest fear is cancer. That's my biggest fear. I don't know why I have the unrational fear of the disease. Maybe it's the pain that is associated with it. I saw what my neice went through. I work in a hospital so I see and hear things about the disease that just scare the crap out of me. I have a ton of health problems now that can easily take over and debilitate me...I don't want it to happen but if it does, I know it's my own fault for not taking care of myself the way I should...but cancer...to me that's different. You can only do so much. It's like a monster that has it's own mind and thought pattern. Maybe I'm just being retarded and thinking about my mortality because today is my birthday but I really am worried about it. I don't want to die a painful death with a monster inside me that won't go away. That slowly takes over and consumes me.<br /><br />I don't mean to be dramatic or stupid...but it's something that I think about occasionally....something that I occasionally worry about...and it's been on my mind today. So I will now leave you with something else to think about. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I had a great day today...granted....I did sleep most of the day but it was uninterupted sleep and it was beautiful. I only woke up because my lil kitten, Amelia, was trying to fluff me. Aren't I fluffy enough??? LOL!! But anyway, I may have some interesting stories after this weekend! Stay tuned!!!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-3635230979679830862010-09-08T21:55:00.001-07:002010-09-08T22:13:10.834-07:00Getting older<div>So it is officially my birthday now. I thought that I would be so freakin excited but you know, i am actually kind of depressed. I'm not even 30 yet and I'm already not wanting to age! LOL!!! I know it can't be helped but i'm just not in the celebrating mood i guess. It could stem from lack of funds too. That definitely has something to do with it! What's the point of having a day to celebrate you getting older when you have nothing to celebrate with?? I am getting a cake from a woman that I work with even though I'm paying $20 for it...but still!!!! I have to work that day...but it's overtime and that's fine with me. I think what I'm going to do is celebrate my birthday on my next paycheck. Yep...I think that's what I'm gonna do. I took Tony to Queeny Tower Restaurant for his birthday. I think we may do that for mine! Maybe I can get a couple of new scrub tops on Friday. But you see, all of that is on a badge. It's like a credit card only the payments come out of my paycheck. It's actually pretty freakin cool! Except it tends to get me into some trouble sometimes! </div>
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<br /><div>TTFN!</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-68154448456324021782010-08-25T10:57:00.000-07:002010-08-25T11:03:53.695-07:00FrustrationsI am so blasted frustrated right now...so if you don't want to read about how horrible and frustrated that I feel...well, then you can just move on to your next blog because I'm about to vent!<br /><br />I love my job. I love the people that I worked with...mainly the techs. There are a ton of people that drive me up the wall at my new job. I am just really not feeling the new people...except for maybe a couple. See, here's what I think...i think that there will be cliques in this new department and I'm just not down with that. I am frustrated because everyone here had someone that they met in orientation. They came into this job with a "friend." I didn't. I transferred in so I didn't know anyone in my training class. I am just not the type of person that assimilates herself into other "cliques" well. That's just not how I am. I take a while to warm up to new people. I'm not the "go getter" type I guess. I had visions of being a lead quickly...i don't see that happening anymore. I see myself transfering out of this department in a year. I don't know...maybe I'm just being retarded but I really hate it when I set goals for myself that seem achievable but then quickly turn out to not be that way. <br /><br />Anyway, I'm not nearly done venting...but I'm tired of being whiney at the moment. Everyone is at lunch right now and I'm just sitting here typing away and not really paying attention to anyone else...maybe i'm being...i can't even think of the word...but whatever. I'm just wishing right now that some moron hadn't stolen my stupid pita chips! I'm hungry and now I don't get to eat until after i get out of the frickin office...i'm pissed!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-80956006788346789642010-08-05T08:17:00.000-07:002010-08-05T08:20:53.558-07:00It's been a while!wow...so it's been a while since I have had a chance to blog. Things have been kind of busy these days. I have started my new job...and am totally loving it! The people in this office are so nice and wonderful! I feel like I belong here...not like what it did in the old office. It's a nice change!! I enjoy coming to work..even though it's at the crack of dawn. I am definitely not a morning person...that's for sure!!!<br /><br />Anyway, not much has been going on since I last wrote. The only BIG new is my new job...but I really don't know what my job is going to be like...i'm just doing temp stuff until we move the office on the 31st of August. So I will definitely have more to tell you later!<br /><br />This one is going to be short...cause I just don't have anything to say!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-38213379447390943472010-07-22T23:28:00.000-07:002010-07-22T23:45:49.904-07:00A constant state of confusionHoly cow....i had no idea that transferring positions was going to be so freakin difficult! Don't get me wrong...I am so freakin excited about this new position and the new possiblities and new work environment...I just hope all this drama is worth it!!! Okay, so confused yet?? Let me tell you what's going on! Here's the latest scoop!<br /><br />So a last week, my boss brings me into her office and asks me if I think that she's blocking my transfer or whatever. I'm obviously going to say no!!! Duh!!! Anyway, I'm not really sure if she even can...who knows!! So, the a few days after that, I get an interview with the Telemetry department for a brand new position...so new that they don't even have a job description of what I'm supposed to be doing! I'm all excited. I am so thrilled with this opportunity! My interview went great...I could just feel the acceptance after this interview...I knew that I nailed it! So, a transfer to a new department is what I have wanted since day 2!! I was stoked! A new office, a new software program, a new position, and a new boss, and new people to get to know! Rock on! Easy Peasy right?? Uh, since when has my life ever been easy??<br /><br />So, I get offered the position after Michelle, my new manager, spoke with Christi. The day after that I accepted the position with HR, I went in to speak with Christi to let her know that I accepted the job and that I was hoping for a release to a different position. She told me that she was going to grant my release but she didn't have a start date for me and I couldn't leave until she found a replacement for me...or two weeks, whichever came first. The way it sounded to me was like I was never going to get out of here...so Tiffany completely panics! Holy Crap!! She really is going to try and block this transfer...that was my first thought. Fast forward a few days...Christi calls me in to give me my review...which was perfect by the way!...and then she tells me that my last day is Sunday....uh...what?? Like 2 days ago, it sounds like I'm going to be stuck here forever and then all the sudden I'm out in less than 2 weeks!!! So here I am, a transferred person with an awesome job waiting for me...the problem...my job wasn't going to start until Aug. 16th. Yeah, 2 weeks of nothing to do for money! So, that's not the end of the world...I can handle a couple of weeks of vacation!! Uh yeah, so now it's changed again...yep...this is the confusing part...I'm supposed to report to my new manager on Monday. The poor woman has no idea what to do with me for a MONTH...yep, you read that right. They changed the stupid date again...our move in date to our new office is now Aug 31st. Anyway, my training date isn't supposed to be until Aug 23rd now....oh boy! What am I supposed to do for a freakin month??? Well, let's hope something comes out right with this transfer!!! Wish me luck! Sheesh!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-56520420395823285002010-07-17T23:17:00.000-07:002010-07-17T23:30:33.638-07:00Fabulous News!Many of you know that I have been trying to transfer out of my office to a different department at Barnes. Well....it finally happened!!!! I am so excited to announce that I am transferring to the telemetry department. I'm not sure of my exact transfer date, but it's coming soon...i can feel it! I'm excited! It's going to be a new experience with an opportunity to learn a new skill and a new department. I totally like my new manager. She seems so sweet and caring...I just don't think that I would ever want to cross her!! I'm looking forward to my 12 hour days and only having to work like 3 days a week! LOVE IT!!! And i get to wear scrubs...now to some that doesn't seem like an exciting thing but I love them! Not only are they completely comfortable, I don't really have to stress about what to wear to work. All I need is like 6 scrub outfits and I'm good to go. I won't have to do laundry for two weeks!!! Rock on!! Anyway, as I know more about the position and things I will definitely keep you all informed! I'm so excited it's ridiculous!<br /><br />Okay, so now on to some other stuff. I'm getting ready to start my canning for the year. I decided this year that I only wanted to can some jams and jellies this year. It's going to be kind of a stressful time of year with Tony starting school and all so I thought I would keep it simple. I'm excited to see where the rest of this year is going to take us and what we can do to try and keep our heads above water. I'm going to try and get my student loans out of default and then I'm going to go back to school to finish my degree...should only take me a couple of years, and by the time I'm done, Tony should only have another year. Hopefully by then, we will have figured out where we want to stay for a while. I think we may move one more time after school is over for us. Who knows, we might even move out of state.<br /><br />So back to the jams and jellies. I have figured out which ones I want to make this year. I'm gonna be busy as there are quite a few of them. One of the ladies I work with now is going to get me some of her apples from her tree so I'm pretty stoked about that. I will be able to make some apple butter and maybe a couple of jars of applesauce, but that's as far as I'm going to go with that this year. I made a ton of applesauce last year and some of them went bad so I'm not sure I want to do that this year. <br /><br />So here's my list of jams and jellies:<br /><br />pomegranate jelly<br />rosy apple cider jelly<br />strawberry kiwi jam<br />candy apple jelly<br />peach jam<br />pineapple kiwi jam<br />strawberry pineapple jam<br /><br />There may be a few more added to this list but I'm pretty happy with the ones that have been selected for this year. I'll definitely post some pics and recipes as they are completed. It will take some time because I have to go and get the jars and find my canner...i still haven't unpacked it yet. <br /><br />So much to do still. I can't wait to get my scrap room organized and get that all situated. With Tony's pell grant money, we have talked about getting a new futon for the living room and getting some other things that are necessaties for us. We are happy that we are going to be able to pay for some things that we need. I can't wait to go back to school so we can have enough money for more things that we want and need to do.<br /><br />Well, I think I'm going to say goodnight for now. I'm not feeling good and I want to lay my head down! Hope you all have a blessed day tomorrow!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-23850713768482007492010-07-13T22:27:00.000-07:002010-07-13T22:45:34.896-07:00A new opportunityHi all!! So we had a wonderful weekend and it's been a pretty good start to this week. My cousin Emma got married this last Saturday at a vineyard in Ste. Genevieve, MO. It's called the Cave vineyard. Yep...only my cousin would get married in a cave!!! LOL!! It was absolutely gorgeous. Candles everywhere made it a romantic and just a lovely reception. I have never seen such a wonderfully happy couple. Evan is just such an awesome guy for her! I think it's a match made in heaven! As soon as I can get some pics up, I will be sure to post them. I wanna make her a lil scrapbook album of her wedding photos that Tony's dad took. He is quite the photographer when he takes the time! I'm actually very impressed with some of the pics that I have already seen. Emma just glowed with happiness. The ceremony was lovely. The pastor said some wonderful things about marriage and i even loved how he added that they can be married for eternity. I thought that was a beautiful sentiment. As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, we believe in eternal marriage as long as a person is sealed in the temple. Emma isn't a member of the Church and neither is Evan. I like knowing that they still have a chance at eternity even though they aren't sealed together in the temple. I'm not sure how the Church would feel about a pastor from another church saying that married couples will be together for eternity, but when this one said it, it felt completely right to me. Now, I'm not saying that what my church says is wrong, but one of the things that always bugged me is that why are we the only ones that can be with our spouses for eternity. Why can't other couples who aren't member be together for eternity? Why does it just have to be us? These are just one of the things that bugs me and some of the questions that I have. I don't really know why I am questioning things that I have grown up knowing to be true...or maybe I just thought they were because my parents told me they were...and as a child, a parent knows all! I don't know. It's just something that I need to work out for my self i guess! <br /><br />So anyway, back to why this is titled "A new Opportunity." I had a job interview today for a position that I really hope that I get. It's a new position in the Telemetry department. Basically it's a receptionist position but there is more opportunities to grow in this position. I will start out at the bottom but since this is a brand new position, there won't be many people starting with me. So as the department grows, I may be able to be a trainer or a lead. Maybe even so far as a supervisor eventually. I really like the manager of the department. I think it would be a great fit for me. It's a 12 hour shift, 3 days a week but I would be paid for 40 hours. I am really hoping that I get this job. I did the best I could with the interview, now it's up to Christi...my supervisor now. I really hope she doesn't block me in this new opportunity. I really want it!<br /><br />I will definitely keep you posted and hopefully there will be some awesome news down the road. Right now, I am just trying to make it through my shifts and hoping that each day, I still have a job to come to. Christi seems to be going through a firing and hiring phase!! All I can do is come in and do my job to the best of my ability and hope and pray that's enough!<br /><br />Oh well, have a great night. I'm gonna take a nap!!! LOL!!! Not likely!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-83946535409591097832010-06-30T02:02:00.000-07:002010-06-30T04:23:05.518-07:00It's been a while!Wow! It's been a long time since I last made a post. It seems like life is just kinda flying by. So much has happened...and so much has fallen apart. Sometimes it seems like life is just blah...but sometimes life is exciting and adventurous. I'll give you some examples of things that have happened lately. <br /><br />So, let's start off with my work environment. My former lead is no longer on my shift and things seem to be going easier now. The girl that replaced her isn't too bad and we get along for the most part. I seem to be leaving work in a lot better mood and have been getting along with others better! I still think people think of me as the office "bitch" but that's okay with me. It's a nice reputation to have! People tend to leave you alone when you have that reputation! The gossip doesn't seem to bother me anymore. As long as I'm not part of it, I don't really care! They finally got my computer fixed so I am able to sit at my own desk and enjoy staring at the wall and not really having to talk to anyone! I still talk to Ms. Evelyn and things between us are better. I don't mind Jessica, the new nightshift girl. She's a little know-it-all like sometimes, but whatever....people are how they are! So things aren't as bad as they have been and I like this new change. It's something that seems to make life a little easier!<br /><br />Tony has entered into his 4th month of employment. He is no longer on probation! They seem to really like him and his work ethic. He's only been late twice and called in once. Not to shabby considering how sometimes life works with/for us. He hopes he's going to make lead soon which i think is a distinct possibility! He is also trying to make it so that he and I can have the same weekends off. It's hard for the two of us to have opposite weekends. It's hard when one of us really needs to sleep and the other wants or needs to get stuff done. I like to get as much done as possible on my weekends off...and that keeps him awake so he's miserable because he can't get any sleep...and it's the same with me...only Tony just sleeps way to freakin much in my opinion!<br /><br />What else has been going on??? We joined the YMCA and are taking some water aerobics classes, which I love! We are also spending some time in the lap lane...swimming a 1/4 mile which makes me feel awesome! I haven't been able to do the laps the last few classes because I have to get a tooth pulled and the pain is just draining all my energy right now. I'm taking some major painkillers which seems to drain me as well. I think once things calm down with my mouth, then we will start back on laps and also start working out in the gym part of the Y!<br /><br />My cousin had her bridal shower a couple of sunday's ago...it's so lovely to see people that care for her and love her. My family isn't like that anymore. It seems that since Grandpa died, my family is falling apart. Nobody really knows what it's like to live with someone with alzheimer's unless you do it. My family has made my mom's life a living hell. They have required so many different explanations for things that are really none of their business. My Grandpa would be ashamed of my family and how they act and how they treat their siblings. I just don't understand them. I don't even want anything to do with a lot of them....and that's just a shame. But you know what. I need to protect myself and look out for myself. I need to start surrounding myself with good, righteous, and courteous people...something many of my family members are NOT.<br /><br />So Tony and I have started going to church again. The Bishop is such a wonderful guy. He's just been the sweetest person to us. The Missionaries came over for dinner and poor things, I didn't serve the best stuff to them. I feel really bad...hopefully they will give us another shot! I think next time, I'll make enchiladas and something fun for desert...like cherry dump cake or something like that. I made my awesome chicken, broccoli, rice casserole...but I ended up using low sodium soups and it just wasn't worth squat! And my banana pudding, yeah...we won't even talk about that! Oh, and the poor elders had to sit on my floor because we don't have a couch or any chairs yet...poor things. It just wasn't a good night for me. I promise it will be better next time guys! I swear it!<br /><br />So, since the Elders knew we didn't have a couch...they found one for us...actually, it just kinda fell into their lap! Their neighbor was moving and asked them if they needed a couch and a recliner. Since they knew that we didn't have one, they called us and we are now the proud owners of a couch and a recliner. I haven't even seen them yet, so hopefully they are in decent shape!<br /><br />So I have to go now...people are going to start arriving and I don't want to get into trouble! I'll have more later...i'm sure of that!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8622164021845808616.post-83711920399271839482010-06-09T22:13:00.000-07:002010-06-09T22:31:15.386-07:00is it even worth it?Oh my goodness...sometimes i ask myself that question a lot!! Like right now, sometimes it just doesn't seem like life it worth all of the drama that's been handed to us. I don't know how we are going to be able to get passed this drama at the moment. It's something that I have to sit and ponder and figure out. I know that the scriptures say that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle...but sometimes, I don't think that I'm as strong as He thinks I am. <br /><br />So here's the situation: Tony has two kids from his previous marriage that I have met like once in the 5 1/2 years that we have been married. We pay $625 a month for two children that we NEVER see. It's soo frustrating. We would love to be able to spend time with them and to enjoy them. We would love to foster a relationship. I strongly believe that a child needs to have both parents in their lives. I know what it's like to be a child of divorced parents...it completely sucks. I hated it as a child, and I can only imagine that they don't necessarily like it either. Here's the sad thing...Tony's youngest, Zachary, doesn't even know his dad. See...Tony has to have monitored visitation...i can't think of the right word at the moment. That makes it difficult when you have a nasty divorce situation. So, if he wants to see his kids, either his ex-wife or her parents have to be there. It would be so nice to be able to spend some quality time with these kids...anyway, here's what's going on now...In the divorce decree, Tony is responsible to pay for their health insurance...well, they are on their mother's insurance so we haven't been paying for it...mainly because Tony hasn't had it because he has the VA...anyway, Tony got to see his paycheck today and it was like a hundred dollars short....Barnes received a letter from the Court system saying that it's mandated that they take the insurance out of his check...so the good thing here, is that Tony has health insurance now...the bad thing, we can't afford to survive now. Oh, we can pay rent and the car payment out of my check but that's pretty much my entire check right there. The measly $200 from Tony's check is going to have to cover everything else. So there goes any fun money out the door. We were going to join the YMCA so that we can get back into shape but that seems to now go out the door. We were going to do a lot of things to the apartment to make it how we want it...but that is no longer going to happen. I don't understand how this is happening to us...I don't understand WHY it's happening to us. We are trying to get our lives back in order and everything is falling apart again. Just when things were looking up, something slaps us back down. I'm trying not to be all depressed about it and trying to make something cheerful happen...but it just seems like everything comes crashing at once.<br /><br />I know this isn't a cheerful happy entry...and i can't seem to always make them that way, but it's something that I needed to get off my chest...so if you are still reading, bless you! Thanks for reading about my horrible day. Right now, all I want to do is go home and sleep and not deal with the world right now...but instead I am stuck here at work, wishing i could just be asleep. Ok, so I'm going to go look at cookbooks now...maybe find some awesome recipes to try! Have a great week everyone!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14233412733919386545noreply@blogger.com0