10 things I'm thankful for

Okay so today has been a very rough day so I think I need to work on thinking of some things that I am particularly thankful for. Here it goes:

1. I am thankful for a husband who can calm me down after something very frustrating happens.

2. I am thankful for a good friend who let's me cry on his shoulder...mainly through instant messaging!

3. I am thankful for the Church and all that it has done to help me and my family.

4. I am thankful for people who listen to my complaining and then tell me to buck up and get on with life because someone else may have things harder than I do.

5. I am thankful for the challenges that I face. I know that they make me stronger in the end...it just sucks while it's going on!

6. I am thankful for the roof over my head. I love my place and I hope that I get to keep it.

7. I am thankful for my education. Now if only I can finish it!

8. I am thankful for my paycheck and the tons of hours that I put in on overtime. It was nice but it could have been nicer!

9. I am thankful to all my blog readers. It seems like some of you actually like to read it!

10. I am thankful for a creative outlet that I have in scrapbooking. I love to be able to take out some of my frustrations out on paper. Scrapbooking makes me happy! Let's hope it always does!

I know some of these things are probably repeats...and that may happen a lot because these are the things that I am truely thankful for. I have some things that I need to get over and I'm working on it but it's hard sometimes to look at the whole picture. It's hard to remember that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle...and i even question how much He thinks that I can handle. I think sometimes I'm at my breaking point and more and more stuff just happens. It's hard....life really is hard. And sometimes I just can't keep doing what I'm doing. I'm trying to figure out how to make life a little easier but I have no idea how. I just keep plugging away and trying different things. Oi! It's tough sometimes!

Inspiration

Ok...so I have this friend that is absolutely the most creative person I know. She is amazing and such an inspiration to me. I have come to realize that I haven't ever told her how much she inspires me. It's interesting to me because I knew her growing up. She's younger than I am. She's the sister of a high school friend of mine. Anyway, it doesn't really matter who she is or what her name is...the thing that matters is the total inspiration that she is to me.

She has two blogs that I read constantly for different ideas for crafts and recipes. I just love her recipes. They are usually pretty good!! And they aren't expensive either! She has inspired me to start a new blog...it's one that probably won't be updated all the time but it's one that I'm going to start so that I can keep a running log of what we like to eat! We also try new recipes all the time so this will be a record of what we've tried! So...here's the new blog address if you feel so inclined to check it out!

http://farhnerfoodies.blogspot.com/

There hasn't been much posted there yet because i just started it. So, make sure if you read this blog, that you check out the other one!!! I promise to only post yummy recipes!

Have a great day!

Christmas lists

Wow...it's that time already?? I can't even believe that there are only 3 months left of this year. It completely shocks me! Where has the time gone? I think back on how this year started and where I am now, and it just amazes me. I love where I'm at now. I love our apartment. I love my new job. I love that Tony is trying to better himself through education. I'm so proud of him. I can't believe how much he really likes going to school. The first week was difficult but things are so much better and wow....we really are happy. I love our new ward. Everyone is absolutely awesome and sweet. Holy Cow...I'm watching the result show for Dancing with the Stars from last night. Chris Daughtry is totally awesome!! For those who don't know me that well, I am a HUGE Def Leppard fan. I am absolutely one of their biggest fans. I just saw Daughtry and Santana's version of "Photograph." It was so amazing! Good job Guys!!! It was great!

Okay, so anyway...it's time to come up with our Christmas lists. So here's what I want:

Tiffany's List:

Cricut cartridges
House seasons 1-5
Law and Order: SVU - all the seasons
Clothes
Shoes

Tony's List:

Guitar books
Acoustic Guitar
Clothes
Shoes
PS3 games

I have no idea what to give Tony for Christmas this year. Things have been really different for us this year. They are starting to look up for next year too. We are so happy being on our own. We are learning more and more about each other and we are just having so much fun. We love being foster parents to kittens for a local rescue. It's just been a blast! So anyway, that's all I have for now. I'm so tired today. 32 hours of overtime this week....i think i'm allowed to be tired!

My new and improved blog!

I love the new look for my blog! I think it's so nice and soothing...nothing like what it used to be! I'm really happy with it! So I have decided to do things a little different with my blog. It seems to me that I have been kind of negative in my blogs. While occasionally it's okay to be negative and have a bad day, I seem to have them more often than not...or maybe I just complain more. So I have decided that today I am going to come up with 10 things that I am thankful for. I have also decided that I am going to try and do that once a week. So here's the list for this week!!

1. I am thankful for sleep. I may not get enough, but I am totally grateful for what I get!

2. I am thankful for vanilla creme wafers! They are my favorite cookie...is that wierd?

3. I am thankful for awesome fellow employees who are willing to go and buy me plums while I am sitting behind this desk waiting for the phone to ring.

4. I am thankful for my creativity that allows me to express myself through my "art" of scrapbooking.

5. I am thankful for my animals even though they drive me crazy sometimes.

6. I am thankful for my friends that I have met throughout my life!

7. I am thankful for my cricut. How goofy is that?? I love my bug...it makes me happy!

8. I am thankful for my husband and the love and support that he shows me!

9. I am thankful for the soldiers who fight for my freedoms.

10. I am thankful for my Mom for everything that she has done for me.

You know, writing this blog today makes me realize that there are a ton of other things that I am thankful for. I can't wait to get them all out there!!

My Biggest Fear

So I was watching reruns of "Grey's Anatomy" today and it got me thinking about my life and my biggest fears. I never really knew that I had a really big fear. Most people are afraid of dying but I'm not. I know where I'm going...maybe not which level of the celesitial kingdom...but I know that at least I will be able to see my family again. I'm not scared of that...my biggest fear is cancer. That's my biggest fear. I don't know why I have the unrational fear of the disease. Maybe it's the pain that is associated with it. I saw what my neice went through. I work in a hospital so I see and hear things about the disease that just scare the crap out of me. I have a ton of health problems now that can easily take over and debilitate me...I don't want it to happen but if it does, I know it's my own fault for not taking care of myself the way I should...but cancer...to me that's different. You can only do so much. It's like a monster that has it's own mind and thought pattern. Maybe I'm just being retarded and thinking about my mortality because today is my birthday but I really am worried about it. I don't want to die a painful death with a monster inside me that won't go away. That slowly takes over and consumes me.

I don't mean to be dramatic or stupid...but it's something that I think about occasionally....something that I occasionally worry about...and it's been on my mind today. So I will now leave you with something else to think about. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I had a great day today...granted....I did sleep most of the day but it was uninterupted sleep and it was beautiful. I only woke up because my lil kitten, Amelia, was trying to fluff me. Aren't I fluffy enough??? LOL!! But anyway, I may have some interesting stories after this weekend! Stay tuned!!!

Getting older

So it is officially my birthday now. I thought that I would be so freakin excited but you know, i am actually kind of depressed. I'm not even 30 yet and I'm already not wanting to age! LOL!!! I know it can't be helped but i'm just not in the celebrating mood i guess. It could stem from lack of funds too. That definitely has something to do with it! What's the point of having a day to celebrate you getting older when you have nothing to celebrate with?? I am getting a cake from a woman that I work with even though I'm paying $20 for it...but still!!!! I have to work that day...but it's overtime and that's fine with me. I think what I'm going to do is celebrate my birthday on my next paycheck. Yep...I think that's what I'm gonna do. I took Tony to Queeny Tower Restaurant for his birthday. I think we may do that for mine! Maybe I can get a couple of new scrub tops on Friday. But you see, all of that is on a badge. It's like a credit card only the payments come out of my paycheck. It's actually pretty freakin cool! Except it tends to get me into some trouble sometimes!

So anyway, back to my lack of birthday money. I really want to go see my grandma but I don't want to have anything to do with my aunts that are taking care of her this week. I really just want to take her out and just have some fun with her. Actually, what I really would like to do is have her over to my house with my mom and George. Maybe fix some awesome Italian food and just spend some time together. I think that's what I am going to plan. Maybe I can get my cousin to come over too! That would just be so much fun! I think I would totally enjoy that. A lil family get-together!!! So that's totally what i am going to plan!!! I am brilliant!!! Wonder if my Aunts are going to be gone by then!?! Oh, you know what, I don't think one of them is...crap. Ok...so maybe a different weekend! You know what, why do I have to change my weekends because of her. Why do I have to change my life because of her. I'm already putting her before me and that makes her win...nope....not doing it. I WILL HAVE MY PARTY THIS WEEKEND...if I can get my house cleaned fast enough! Ok, so that's decided!! I'm kinda excited!!

Okay, so I ramble a lot...you don't have to be reading this far down! LOL!!! I'm outta here...I'm tired and I'm at work.

TTFN!